Merry Christmas

Well, It doesn't feel like christmas, but it is! The hospital is pretty empty tonight! But my boys will be here to visit me soon, and my dad flew in, and of course I always have my amazing Marc! So I am blessed! I figure I can sacrifice one christmas so that I can have 40 to come, right? I did get some good news, apparently leukemia can hide out in your spinal fluid sometimes, so they removed some of my fluid and replaced it with chemo (I do not reccomend this procedure!) But my spinal fluid came back clear! So there is another amazing blessing! Everything keeps going smoothly and I couldn't ask for more! I hope everyone has an amazing christmas and I miss you all!

Well, I am home! It is amazing to be with family, my own bed, my own schedule, it's great! HOWEVER, I don't feel like ME. This doesn't really feel like my house and I'm feeling very lost inside. My sweet family has been there with me through the panick attacks, melt downs and complete fatigue! I keep wondering when I'll feel like me again, and sadly from what I've heard, it may take months. To all my friends, don't give up on me, I'm still in here somewhere! :)

Music

I love music! It is saving me right now! It can make you calm, make you excited and make you feel emotion! For a caged bird, it's a lifesaver! Here is my basic day:
Wake up
Eat breakfast
Shower
Take a nap
Order lunch while listening to music
Eat lunch
Go for a walk
Take a nap
Order dinner while listening to music
Eat dinner
Visit with family
Take a nap
Listen to music
Go to bed

Isn't that exciting?? :( see music saves me! I hope people in prison get music....

The plan

Well, as many of you heard, my bone marrow biopsy came back that my leukemia is in remission! I am so grateful for all your prayers! I think if I had to stay another month here and do that all over again, I just might lose it! So now we are just waiting for my immunity to hit 1000 (it hasn't left 0 :( The doctors predict I can go home sometime at the end of next week! Then I will stay home for a week, do another bone marrow test just to be sure, then I have to come back for a 6 day stay of follow up chemo. I will be doing follow up chemo once a month for about 3-4 months. At that point they still may do a bone marrow transplant just to be safe. I hope we don't have to do that though! So that's the plan. I can't wait to get home and be a mom again! I miss my family SO much!

Spotlight Supporters

I am Becky and Marc is my brother. In our family my mom had 5 girls in a row and then the 3 boys. Janette was the first “sister” that was brought into our crazy group of girls and she has weathered that storm quite well. We love her like she has been with us all along. One thing we noticed right off about Janette is that she is a planner. They plan everything. From the moment they laid eyes on each other they planned to be together forever and ever. We have been so proud of them as they picked up their family and moved across the U.S. to Alabama to attend Pharmacy school. As long as they had each other they could do anything. And Janette is a HUGE support to Marc as he is finishing Pharmacy school right now as we speak. Well, the plan was to move back to Utah in December! We were all so excited and so proud! They needed to dust themselves off from 4 years of super hard work of being a full-time student and a full-time stay-at-home mom. How did they do it you ask? Student loans. And they planned those out to the last dollar too. They would live with Jan’s parents and Marc could finally start to earn some money for his family. Well – they didn’t plan cancer. It has changed their whole plan. The saying that bad things happen to good people could not be more true. They are staying in Alabama for treatment – it is the best thing for them. The friends that surround them in Alabama are the greatest blessing that we could ask for. There is so much that I want to do for them but distance keeps us from doing it. I truly believe that Alabama feels the aching of our hearts – and they are our hands. There are so many people who have asked what they can do to help. What we hope to do for them is to donate money so they can afford to stay in their apartment that is close to the hospital, pay the utilities and finish up the last weeks of his schooling. I know that Marc and Janette would never ask for this, but me being his sister, I know what their worries are. My prayers would be answered if they don’t have to waste one ounce of worry on whether the bills are paid. We just want them to be able to focus on getting Janette well and continue living together forever and ever.

That’s the plan.

Thank you all for supporting our family. They deserve it.

Becky

Medical update!!

Well, I got a new doctor today (they work 2weeks on and 2 off) and when he came in the first thing he asked was if I was still in high school. Awesome. You should have seen his face when I told him I was 27with two kids!!! So, after he got over his shock he was very impressed with how well I am doing! My ANC is up to 30 today (it has been hanging at zero for 5 days!) which means I'm beginnings to build immunity again! They are doing a bone marrow test tomorrow morning so by Wednsday we should know if the chemo worked! They said that with how well I'm doing they see no reason why I shouldnt be home by the 9th for Conners Christmas program! Thank you for all your prayers everyone!!!! -by the way, I still have my hair! Maybe I will get another miracle and it will stay awhile longer!

Amazing Women

I have to say a special thank you to my mom and my sister Teresa! They are amazing! They spent hundreds of dollars to fly to my house and: take care of my children, clean my house, do my laundry, cook my families meals, keep me from going crazy, massage my back and brush my hair when I don't feel good, read to me, uplift and encourage me, decorate my hospital room, and many more things I'm not even aware of! They are amazing and I love them so much!